Curtains

Desperately, I grip onto you for sanity. I would prefer

Every macabre thought you have over my own. I scream for you to

Pull me away from my own desolation and

Remorse, but it falls on deaf ears. I keep

Erupting into tears that I can no longer constrain. The

Superfluous reveries are gruesome at best and when it comes to thoughts of

Self-destruction, I am the maestro of death.

I want to live, but I am the venom in my own life.

Only when you pluck away my rigid fingers from your arm, I realize

No one is concerned. This was inevitable. Nothing can help me. 

Prohibited

Charlie flirts with me but I play hard to get...

Her endeavors at seduction are inadequate at first but persistence was key,

She seduces my judgement until I can no longer recall my reason for refusing her,

I inhale the scent of her exotic perfume and in an instant she makes me feel alive,
She softly embraces me and caresses my anxieties away,

She tantalizes my body...

A meager graze of her finger sends chills down my spine,

Her cheeky effervescence keeps me in a state of euphoric pleasure,

The mere thought of life without her is absurd,

I've become so enamored with her,

She's now my obsession...

Flawless

Excessiveness shows at every curve

There's a sense of being undeserved

Grab a dull razor to lacerate the skin

Just to make you feel real again

Chisel, carve, or slice the cadaver

Anything that entices you to have her

Love is mythical

Pain is genuine

"The first essentials, of course, is to know what you want." - Robert Collier

I want to be yours.

I want to be your dream.

I want to be your fantasy.

I want to be your desire.

I want to be your passion.

I want to be your lust.

I want to be your love.

I want to be your ecstasy.

I want to be your euphoria.

I want to be your everything.

I want to be enough.

I want you.

Just a thought

We are all victims when it comes to the art of seduction...

Sushi Zushi & 20Nine

I took my brother out to eat at Sushi Zushi yesterday.  I've only been about 3 or 4 times prior but I enjoy it there.  Very nice, clean and modern place.  Normally I get a couple of sushi rolls but I've been trying to get out of eating the same thing at the same places.  So instead, I ordered:

• Soft Shell Crab Kara-agge; OK, but won't order again since I felt like I kept eating a piece of shell
• Chicken Yakisobi with Udon noodles; very good, udon noodles are just thicker noodles
• Beef Yakitori; decent; tasted like small pieces of steak and was a little tough
• Gyoza; a dumpling of sorts - delicious
• Tempura Ice cream (vanilla, not green tea flavor); delicious but next time I'll try green tea ice cream
• Pomegranate Iced Tea

I was desperately wishing I wouldn't like any of the food just so I didn't have to eat it... you know, with my supposed "diet" and all.  But the only thing I didn't eat much of was the fried crab.

Thankfully my brother, being the guy that he is, ate most of the food we ordered. I can safely say I at least tasted/sampled each plate but didn't eat as much compared to him.  I feel a little guilty since he is [was] on a diet himself.  Why is he on a diet? Not quite sure since he's slender... I assumed he'd wanna build muscle, not lose weight. But what do I know? I can hardly take care of my own body... I'm not going to try to tell someone else how to handle theirs.

After dinner, I figured we were on our way home but my brother decided to stop by a wine bar called 20Nine.  Very quaint, cozy, friendly place... we [JJ] wanted to sit at the bar and we each ordered something called  a "Road Trip" which consisted of 3 different wines from the same family.  I had Merlot and my brother had Pinot (both are red wines).  Out of the 3 glasses I had, the best was Ferrari-Carano, Sonoma County '04.  The wine descriptions sounded tastier then they were...but I still believe red wine is more of an acquired taste.  I decided to order a Jacobi Riesling (white wine) which was a little sweeter than I'm used to but it was delicious.

"Frankly my dear, I don't give a damn."

Nearly every day I run into someone who tries to quote a line, and in a few instances sing a song, from a well known movie that I have never seen before.  I figure I should jump on the bandwagon and attempt to watch this growing list... even the ones that I think are snoozers.

1. Gigli (just kidding!)
2. The Godfather
3. The Godfather II
4. The Godfather III
5. Star Wars IV
6. Star Wars V
7. Star Wars VI
8. Star Wars I
9. Star Wars II
10. Star Wars III
11. Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
12. Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
13. Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
14. Pirates of the Caribbean: The Curse of the Black Pearl
15. Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Man's Chest
16. Pirates of the Caribbean: At the World's End
17. Pirates of the Caribbean: On Stranger Tides (2011)
18. Grease
19. Grease 2
20. The Wizard of Oz
21. The Notebook
22. The Bourne Identity
23. The Bourne Supremacy
24. The Bourne Ultimatum
25. V for Vendetta
26. Indiana Jones: Raiders of the Lost Ark
27. Indiana Jones and the Temple of Doom
28. Indiana Jones: The Last Crusade
29. Indiana Jones: Kingdom of the Crystal Skull
30. The Hangover
31. Casablanca
32. Gone With the Wind
33. Platoon
34. Inglorious Basterds
35. Valkyrie
36. Psycho (1960)
37. Rocky Horror Picture Show
38. Scarface
39. Dazed And Confused
40. Anchorman
41. Star Trek (2009)
42. Little Orphan Annie
43. Office Space
44. 12 Angry Men
45. The Usual Suspects
46. King Kong (1933)
47. Godzilla (1954)
48. Some Like It Hot
49. Clerks
50. Clerks 2
51. The Big Lebowski
52. Being John Malkovich
53. The Hurt Locker
54. Precious
55. The Blues Brothers
56. Wanted
57. Reservoir Dogs
58. The Matrix (OK, I saw this one but don't remember it at all)
59. The Matrix Reloaded
60. The Matrix Revolutions
61. Monster's Ball
62. The Chronicles of Narnia: The Lion, The Witch & The Wardrobe
63. The Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian
64. The Chronicles of Narnia: Voyage of Dawn Treader (2010)

To be quite honest, I can't remember the other movies but I will keep adding to this list... time to catch up to America.